Yep, it's official. Emma is feeling so heavy now that I have to hold her up with my hands. =) Here I am with my meatball at 36 weeks. Can't believe we only have 4 more weeks to go. This is good, though, since I got a taste of a heat wave in San Diego today and I have much more love for those that are pregnant during the summer. Ugh. Stretchy dresses are the best ever!
Larry and I finished our two day child birth marathon classes this weekend. They were very informative, but very tough on my toosh. I can never complain too much about how much sitting for long periods of time really sucks! In addition to being more educated on labor, delivery, breathing, relaxing, pushing, coping with getting this baby out of my body, I am now more nervous about the whole process. I hope that I am strong enough to get this baby into the world. A lot depends on mom....no pressure, no pressure! I am lucky to have such a loving, supportive husband, who I know will be the calm, reassuring partner that I will need to make it through Emma's delivery.
I received clarification that all the times I think Emma is pushing her butt out to the side of my belly is not really Emma at all, but indeed an increase in Braxton Hicks contractions. Supposedly this is great practice for my uterus. I am still not a huge fan of this weird belly pressure, especially when one side of my belly is all lopsided and deformed looking. The "tightness" of these contractions is more desirable than her kicks, which are seriously on a whole new level these days! =) I'm glad she's strong and active, but man, she is killing me! She has learned new combo moves too and will throw in a quick jab after a kick. At least I know she will be able to defend herself on the playground. ;)
For those that know me well, you know that I am a huge planner. I like predictable schedules, things to be laid out for me, certainty. The unknown is like my kryptonite and probably a huge reason why I love working with kids with autism so much because I need a predictable routine just as much as they do! Well, the next few weeks are going to be very unpredictable and there are a lot of unknowns in my future. Surprisingly enough, I am okay with all of this. I am just going to take it one day at a time, enjoy these last precious moments where I really get Emma all to myself, enjoy my students to the fullest during these last days of work, trudge through my remaining classes, and be ready for the unexpected. I will be a mom any day now and there is nothing that I look forward to more than that! It makes everything in between seem manageable. At least it looks that way today.
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